Saturday, November 8, 2014

Different: Yes, I am!


Dear Parents,
If I am different is it bad? Do I have to be one of the normal ones? I might not want to be a machine of any sort , get married or start a new family . I want to live life in my own terms, doing things that I enjoy and make me happy. Travel all around, make music, paint or write poetry. Just something different than the mainstream. This doesn't mean that I have not been brought up right, I have been brought up very nicely with good culture and family values. You have made me a very good person and for others I might seem to be a bit weird and not normal but it really doesn't matter what they think. It only matters what you think. 

I know of the struggles that you have had bringing me up. The sacrifices you have done for me and it might even break your heart when people brag about how their children are doing so well and when you look at me I am all weird.  But this is who I am and who I choose to be. My individuality forbids me to be a clone of everyone else. I just want to be myself and it might break your heart when everyone else is into the mainstream and I am not but please just know that I will always be happy . 

Time has changed and I just have different dreams, when I demand for something please do not reject it at once thinking it's an absurd one. I would be much happier if you think about it once before rejecting it, I don't expect every demand to be fulfilled. Rejection will make me stronger and it will test my determination, my will power. 

When I think of my aim I get lost in the dream I have, I know I am different and every different individual makes a bigger difference perhaps. I want to create a difference. And I might be successful in doing it. There will be equal chances that I might not be as well. But please don't be heartbroken if I don't. Don't take me as LUNATIC WHEN I ACT DIFFERENTLY BECAUSE I AM A LUNATIC BUT A SANE ONE.  

 Whenever I am about to do something different, I always question myself if my actions will disappoint you. But please forgive me. I am not selfish one and don't like hurting you. Everything I do is in a hope that I might make you proud someday, in a grand way. And all I want you to say to me is, ‘make your own choices and learn from your own mistakes be different but yourself, I might not be happy with it but my love and blessings will always be with you.’

Sincerely
Your child. 

 

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Laugh with Me !!

"That hair is the coolest of all" Said no one for 18 years, "these words will be noted", wasn’t even said for 16 years, and it really never mattered. Till now. Funny how the first compliment flash backs  all the old  criticisms , making wounds and as the praises continues the self made wound pretended to heal. 
All the things I was used to hearing and ignoring seemed like the whole truth. When new opinions rained I started having doubts. . May be I am being mocked at. Some sort of prank i guess.
“ Soo! what do i do now? Or am i wrong? May be i am getting Praises ! I don’t wanna be looked as a fool. May be not!” my uncertain mind gave me an answer. Smile and joke about it. If the thing is a joke then you handled it properly ,  if it’s not ,then you didn't boast about it. And it works.

And here i come to this day , Joking about almost everything . Joking  because of confusion, illusion, pretension and prevention. My Jokes and joking habits might show good self esteem  but it's actually began as a way of good self Defense
 When I think back I have saved myself  a hundreds of times by presenting it humorously . I know many incident could have been stopped if only I hadn't taken it too seriously . I needed too much patience because  the tolerance of being laughed at takes a lot of time. Then I felt I am not being laughed at I am actually Entertaining. And I like that . it feels pleasing . giving other a moment to smile, I sigh secretly to relief too.
Laugh with me!! :D